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Goal: Mitty needs to sing “Rich Girl” to me by/on September 22nd *AHEM!*
If I was a rich girl, na na na na na na na na! X'D!
All the riches baby ^_~
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[04 Feb 2005|10:27pm] |
hehe, biting off of Ellen but in case I actually DO apply for Smoke Signal...
What are 2 adjectives that you would use to describe me?
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[01 Feb 2005|10:33pm] |
New LJ , ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) amyliciouzz , comment to be added.
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| Random Parent/Teen Post |
[27 Jan 2005|11:12pm] |
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I’m bored so I’ll post again. This is just something that I was thinking about this afternoon when I felt incompetent.
I don’t know about other people, but my parents ALWAYSSSSSSSS compare me to their friends’ kids and to my cousins. Like in social gatherings, that’s the main topic of discussion, and many times they get into rather heated debates about it.
And they want me to go to medical. But they want me to go to UOP accelerated Dental program so that in 5 years I graduate and become a dentist w/o internship or w/e. I mean, WOOOWWW, I don’t think I can do that or am interested in dentistry, at least not now, I don’t know what I like now. They want to save money. *sigh* And most importantly, they want free dental service when they’re old. I swear, I love/hate how my parents are SOOOOO Asian sometimes.
Yeah… They don’t even consider me failing. Though they’re like, “ OH NO!!! If you go to Berkeley, you’re going to have competition with smart people from around the world because Berkeley is an international school and you’re going to FAIL!!!”
But you know what, they won’t hear of me failing in college. Not even at school. Yesterday I asked my mom what would she do if I failed my finals. She said that as long as I tried my best its all good, and that she believes in me and that I will always do the best, get an A. Hm, rightt....I was talking to my sister about it.
Me: Jie, what if I become a college drop out.
Karen: That just won’t happen. Mom and dad aren’t even ever going to consider that.
Me: why?!?!?!?!
Karen: We just KNOWWW that you’ll succeed.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH*#$&@#*($&(*@ See all the burden?! It’s like an obligation to myself to succeed and finish college on time, if not ahead of time.
And I was talking to my dad the other day about how I really wanted to go to John Hopkins. And he’s like, “ wutcha smoking?!?! You gonna fail, girl! You gonna become a doctor when your 30! You gonna be an old maid! You gonna have a stressful life!”
And there’s always a conversation between my parents and I that goes like this…
Parents: OH!! So-and-so’s child got into Harvard and did this and did that and now has a six figure salary for their FIRST JOB=D =D =D! (like omg, right.)
Me: But I’m not like them!
Parents: But you can BECOME them! owned.
Me: why do you always compare me to ppl better than me?! You realize that I am smarter than some people out there. I’m not TOTALLY dumb like you think I am.
Parents: *scoffs* Psh, you aren't smart. You just work hard due to those working habits that we trained you with when you where younger, and ANYWAYS, never compare yourself to those “lower” than you! Always aim to be BETTER! To be better than the best! Got that?! Owned, once again.
I'll be so glad if I just survive tomorrow. One day at a time is my pace for now.
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| Finals, Day 2 |
[27 Jan 2005|10:47pm] |
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I'm so glad all this is almost gonna be over. I JUSt finished studying for Eng. It took me one WHOLE hour to read ALL of Cry's notes. and I took a 3-4 hour nap this afternoon <3!
Why does everyone like journalism? I'm not against it or anything, but just good luck to all those ppl trying to compete for 2 periods of one class. that's pretty intense competition right there.
Hmm... I feel so behind and dumb compared to everyone who's posting their schedules and taking all these hard classes with LOTS of writing and analysis, sure will be loads of fun. but here's how I see it:
Jr. Year
Hn Pre-Calc
Hn Eng
AP Bio
AP Chem/AP psych/reg psych/art
Band
US History (NOT apush)
Snr. year
AP Calc BC
AP Eng (if I make it X'D)
AP Physics
AP Stat
Band
Gov/econ
And then there's the SAT's interspersed between everything T_T! mEeeP!
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| Finals, Day 1 |
[26 Jan 2005|08:06pm] |
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Things that made me smile today.
1)A sCRATCH N SNIFF STICkER!!!!!! YARRRRR! Actually, it was called a “scratch and smell” sticker, but wutev, it was one of the happiest moment of this year so far. Besides in Spain that one night at dinner where it was John, Alex, Tina, Ellen, Tarang, Me, Lizzie, Jessica, and I THINK Ian at the table telling jokes. FunNee.
2) when I got a math problem that I was stuck on for 2 days. I feel soooooo nerdy, I swear. What am I gonna do?
3) When I realized that I had a jacket that was uber warm.
4) When two of my projects were on the DI slideshow =D. hehe. If he had shown the digital photo one, I’m pretty sure he would’ve shown Arthi’s. Her’s is HELLLLAAAA good =).
5) When I realized that I got most of Chem. Hah, watch me fail tomorrow.
6) The fact that I didn’t think about English ONCE before Cindy called me.
7) Ellen owns.
8) Looking at ppl’s final-wear. It’s totally hip.
9) No distraction~~~ today. YES. pEACE
10) The fact that I only hafta study geometry now! I NEED to get at least a B+ to ensure everything. *bites nails*
11) My new cell phone ring tone (lights go out and I can’t be saved…. you are….. *piano playing*)
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[24 Jan 2005|10:34pm] |
Today really sucked, a lot. I felt really sick and wanted to throw up. =(
All my classes are monotonous now.
Hm... what made me smile today..
1)Chris' smiley face
2)Leave by Tyler from Lizzie =)
3)My mom being weird.
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[22 Jan 2005|07:07pm] |
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The chem project is REALLY killing me. I feel like I can't breathe because I'm so stressed out that I won't be able to finish. I drew this thing for my background for ONE page in 2 hours. Great, 6 more pages to go.
And I hate it how my last name starts with an A. I go first for everything, including my chinese presentation tomorrow.
Life sucks. I mean, we say/know that we shouldn't care about our grades that much, but if I don't get a 4.0 this semester, I'm seriously going to have a nervous breakdown because I tried SOOOOOOOO hard already. I almost broke down yesterday after the Chem test but I was too busy working on the CHem proj until 12 to notice, that's how sad my life is.
Whenever I get nervous, I'm silent, and I have been silent, for the past few days. Soooooooo stressed. don't know what to do.
I swear I'm gonna die from exhaustion/stress-related issue. I want/need to go chillax SOOOOO badly right now.
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| I HATE STRESS. |
[20 Jan 2005|08:46pm] |
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Right now I'm HELLLLLAAAAAAAAA Stressed about about Chem, more than I know I should be, and that's saying a lot. So yeah.. taking a break.
( Stress Reliever survey )
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| Today was a weird day... |
[20 Jan 2005|06:54pm] |
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On Justin's request...
It's a lot smaller than it really was because my camera has really high resolution, and my comp froze a few times while it was saving @_@...
Anyways, today was weird because afterschool you weren't there.
I hope I ace tomorrow Chem Test! In 12 practice problems, i got 8 wrong, hm.. im in trouble. Wish me luck plzzzz T_T!
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[18 Jan 2005|10:13pm] |
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I've never done this before, but... *feels weird, tummy flop*
Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.
I'm not ready for my first final tomorrow T_T so help me God.
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| 6.5 hours away! |
[13 Jan 2005|11:38pm] |
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It takes me 25 minutes from waking up to getting on car to get ready for school. That's a decrease from 30 minutes. I rock =)!
Math was the usual. I seriously don't get math now. Like, his lectures and the book problems are not correlated at al. I have to read the lessons myself and reanalyze. *sigh*
Chem is just boring now. It will be for a long while.
English was horrible. Everyone's project was SOOOOOOOO much better than mine. I think it was partly b/c I brought my project to school early on so everyone looked at it and used it as a guide for theirs. hmph. Oh well, As long as I get that darn A.
Band is kind of relaxing b/c you just sit there for 50 minutes doing nothing, and you won't get in trouble b/c Kraft is seriously very leniant on us.
Lunch: Went to Ponsi with Justin and Ellen so Justin could make up his test.
On a random note, Ellen and her explanation of the history teachers and their "chillaxing" room was interesting.
D.I. quiz. I missed one. I cna't believe it. I was hecka debating whether to change the answer (to the right one) but I was like, " Follow your intuition.." My intuition sucks, it has been confirme.
WH.. Oh yeah, video, which i did not even look at b/c the whole time I was staring at my nb, jotting down w/e I heard.
After school my mom went to Lion's and bought food. Then when I got home, I organized some stuff, etc. Then I was GONNA start hw at 4, BUT, I called Cindy to check Vocab. And afterwards she said she was tired and wanted to take a nap, which got me to take one too.
I woke up around 6:15. My parents left for a dinner with my mom's really close friend who's visiting from Georgia. So my brother and I were eating out Udon and watching Raising Helen.
I was originally gonna stop at 7.. then I decided 7:30.. then my brother convinced me to finish it up, which took till 9.
So at 9 I started doing math and i had no freakin idea what to do. Karmali should teach according to the book or explain how to do the book problems. I'm hella confused.
Now I'm finally done with the stuff due tomorrow and I'm being lazy. Goodnight <333
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| Just another update |
[12 Jan 2005|10:14pm] |
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So these few days there's nothing much happening besides people getting Winterball pictures back and Catherine's then Ellen's Bday. Now all I hafta remember is Brian (1/27), Allen(1/18), and Cindy (30/31st.. forgot).
School has been SUCHHHH a draggg. I swear. Not that I'm still tired from Spain but I don't feel like doing anything. Like right now, for example. I have this major quiz tomorrow in D.I. that covers 728347823749 stuff, yet I'm procrastinating. Oh well, someone poke me if you must.
Now that I'm starting to listen to music again (The last time I heard music by myself was on the flight back from London), I noticed a lot of things about the rhythm/lyrics of a lot of the songs I like. LIke the mainstream songs actually aren't always that great.. they're just... REALLY catchy. That's it.
I always seem to be in the middle of conflicts. Am I really that much of a high-maintenance, loud, whimsical, and weird person? I pbb am sometimes, but then who's perfect? Oh yeah, I still have a CHinese Research essay to do. If my mom knew, she'd kill me.
PLease don't try so hard to say goodbye.
Where will you be when you are 21? Will you still know me? Will you invite me to your wedding? Will you want to know me? Or will you just not contact me for w/e reasons and wait until high school reunion, which I probably will not get the letter to? Will you have kids? How will you bring them up?
I wanted to be like you, I wanted everything.
So I tried to be like you And I got swept away.
I am SO COld right now. I want mittens, not gloves... as in I want to wear gloves and then put a layer on mittens over them. Talking about mittens, I miss having Chinese class with Didi Cool, Mitty/Batman/Kitty, Robin, and all the other ppl that make it interesting. =(.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here, girl.
Love that line (=! If only it were true. Wonder who it'd be from... and will it be said to me w/n the next 10 years? ...hopefully with a commitment, pretty please with a big fat cherry on top??? Scary thoughts. Anyways, good bye kids :D
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What was that syndrome where you had like... really moody mood-swings? Like... Bipolar Manic Depression??? Oh well. Everyone has it. Just the level. LIke for me, I can be so happy I make all the freakin high squeaks and talk so high even I can't make out what I'm saying if I wasn't the one talking. And I can be so depressed I just want to lie on my bed and sleep it all away.
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[03 Jan 2005|08:24pm] |
Just got back from Spain.
All I want to do is hurl.
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[25 Dec 2004|12:24am] |
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Merry Christmas everybody!!!!
I'm finally ALLLL packed for Spain! 40 pounds of luggage! YES! X'D!
CANT WAIT <333!!!!! LIZZIE, ROOMMATE!!!!!! HEHEHEHEHH =D =D!
1)We're leaving at 12 PM
2)the total travelling w/ all the switching planes, etc, etc included is aorund 15 hours
3)We arrive at Spain at around 12 P.M. (LOOK BACK AT NUMBER ONE)
4) BUTTTTTTtt.... OUr minds will be set at around 3 A.M.
5) and since Europeans usually do everything later, we will have to stay awake for another 9 hours, at least! HMMM, I see a major problem here...
And the day after I come back, there's gonna be a math quiz *&#$*&@(#*!
And I don't sleep on the plane, it just doesn't come natural for me anymore. My dad was like... "Maybe you should drink milk, cuz whenever you were on flights *and I was on them a lot* as a baby, you'd fall asleep right after they gave you milk."
Problem is, I'm lactose intolerant now. jOy. Hm.
But anyways, I will have fun =) *hopefully* definitely.
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| Winter Break =D! |
[21 Dec 2004|07:31pm] |
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Winter Break so far has been mediocre, not TOO fun, but ITS SOOOOOOOOOO RELAXING! I get to sleep more than enough and be hyper a lot and scary people like that =)!
BUt I have a shitload of hw to do. *sigh* Stupid English. *RAWR!* stupid "person". JUst thinking about him makes my eye twitch. I want to choke that guy.
Ever After is seriously the best Cinderella-story-movie that will ever be made because it has a really creative storyline AND shows the prince's side of the story too. =) Go watch that!
Dood, I just realized that Kraft has our tickets! *for the flights* ANDDDDDd where do we meet for the airport?
( 2004, from everyone else but this is for my own memory )
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[13 Dec 2004|10:44pm] |
1) Chem Test--> I don't get REdox Equations, Oh dear.
2) Math Test--> I do not get this chapter, this test will KILL my grade, seriously.
3) Eng--> SO MUCH WORK FOR THIS CLASS! AND IT SUX CUZ EVEN IF YOU DITCH IT, YOU HAF TO MAKE IT UP, WHICH SUX EVEN MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe.
4) Band--> OMG, there's something band-related to do everyday afterschool this week!!!!!! INCLUDING FRIDAY!!!!!!!! WHERE/WHEN'S MY LUNCH, DAMMIT!!!!!!
5)D.I.- Stupid pictures
6) WH---> I would complain, but I finished my nb in class, so I'm coo with it, so far.
7) MY KITTY IS STILL MISSING!
8)I do NOT feel ANY Christmas spirit right now. This year, my emotions/reactions have all been so delatyed!
9) I did not go Xmas shopping yet..... =X.
10) When Winter breaks comes, I'm seriously just gonna chill, and go out a lot and eat good food instead of always having to stuff in a sandwich just in time for school or 5th period. And I will visit places, see ppl, GET SOME REST, and be slothlike, YES. Oh yes, forget about hw and studying, GRR.
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My cousin just had a baby girl last night. Wowness. To think that in about 12-13 years I'm pbb going to have a baby is just... insane.
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[13 Dec 2004|12:22am] |
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My kitty is missing. :'/
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[06 Dec 2004|11:20pm] |
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50 Cent Gets Owned X'D....
Anyways, it was really funny how I had Ellen's flute in my flute clase, and vice versa because we somehow switched it after the parade last Saturday and didn't realize it. We're such geeky band farts. =)
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